In a statement posted to her Instagram, the 23-year-old Japanese pro tennis player said dropping out from the high-profile event was “the best thing for the tournament, the other players and my well-being.”
“I never wanted to be a distraction and I accept that my timing was not ideal and my message could have been clearer,” Osaka wrote. “More importantly I would never trivialize mental health or use the term lightly.”
Osaka, a four-time Grand Slam winner, went on to reveal that she’s suffered from “long bouts of depression” since the U.S. Open in 2018 and has had “a really hard time coping with that.”
“Anyone that knows me knows I’m introverted, and anyone that has seen me at tournaments will notice that I’m often wearing headphones as that helps my social anxiety,” Osaka wrote.
“So here in Paris I was already feeling vulnerable and anxious so I thought it was better to exercise self-care and skip the press conferences,” she added.
Osaka said she had privately apologized to French Open officials when she made her initial announcement about not speaking to the press. She said she told them she would be “more than happy” to speak with reporters after the tournament ended.
“I’m gonna take some time away from the court now, but when the time is right I really want to work with the Tour to discuss ways we can make things better for the players, press and fans,” Osaka wrote.
On Sunday, the heads of the four Grand Slam tournaments ― the Australian Open, the French Open, Wimbledon and the U.S. Open ― announced in a joint statement that Osaka would be fined $15,000 for “choosing not to honor her contractual media obligations.”
In their statement, the officials said they have “significant resources dedicated to player wellbeing” but needed players to engage with them on these issues.
“A core element of the Grand Slam regulations is the responsibility of the players to engage with the media, whatever the result of their match, a responsibility which players take for the benefit of the sport, the fans and for themselves,” according to the statement.
The officials warned that Osaka could face suspension from future tournaments for violating the code of conduct if she continues to refuse to speak with the media.
This is a developing story. Check back for updates.
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This article originally appeared on HuffPost and has been updated.